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The storm hits, and I have been too distracted to notice the boiling clouds or cobble together a shelter until it’s too late. I am drenched in a fury outside of anyone’s control, at the mercy of merciless elements. Unwelcome memories soak me to the bone. Doubts thunder, and anger illuminates my universe in stark flashes. It is simply too much. My feet give out from under me, and I let the torrent sweep me away.

In these times, I don’t know which way is up, much less whether or not God exists. All I can see is the pounding blackness of my immediate reality, and I start to think that disavowing religion altogether might keep the storms at bay.

But my soul doesn’t actually want a retreat; it wants a fight. It wants a shouting match with someone who can stand up in the force of all my turmoil. It wants a defense from the one I sometimes believe orchestrates the storms, and it wants to be convinced that I’m blaming the wrong things. It wants answers for now and answers for then and answers tucked into the pockets of my future. It wants a way of belief that validates my logic and my experiences, my ever-racing mind and my ever-tired heart.

Above all, it wants peace… and here in the darkness of cloud cover, the anchorless tumult, and the weary absence of intention, I catch an unexpected glimpse of it:

“May the peace of the Lord Christ go with you wherever he may send you;
may he guide you through the wilderness, protect you through the storm;
may he bring you home rejoicing at the wonders he has shown you;
may he bring you home rejoicing once again into our doors.”
(from Common Prayer)


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  1. Querida  •  May 3, 2011 @ 11:29 PM

    *Hugs*

  2. lizardek  •  May 4, 2011 @ 8:40 PM

    This is lovely, but I just have to show you the a screenshot of how it appeared on my reader page, with accompanying ad: http://www.lizardek.com/lj_images/juxtaposition.jpg

    So, FTW Google ads?

  3. Megsie  •  May 10, 2011 @ 4:06 PM

    Sending you all kinds of love and hugs. That, I believe is what the strength of peace is made of…that love part. xo

    Beautiful writing too BTW… :)

  4. Bethany Bassett  •  May 12, 2011 @ 11:20 PM

    Q and Megsie – Hugs to you too; thank you, dears.

    Liz – You get special points for making me giggle. (No points for Google… hehe.)

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